Unhealthy

I wonder if my new fascination with events twenty years gone is emotionally unhealthy. I cannot go back, for better or worse. In fact, "for better or worse" is why I'm looking back. I am in the middle of a midlife crisis, a career change, and marriage counseling; and I'm hoping by looking back that I'll be better reminded of why I'm here and better able to decide where I'm going. To make healthy choices here on out, even if I did not always do so in the past. You can't move past feelings by burying them. I'm hoping that by digging up the past, I can face it, fix it, and heal. Then put the unhealthy bits to rest for good.